Frust with my life

Aku ada 4 adek beradek. Aku ada kakak, adek lelaki 2 orang. Aku anak ke-2. Dan aku ada great cooker mom and papa. Hmm, talk about family. We're not close each other. I mean my siblings and I, my mother and I, are damn close. But.. Arh you think yourself. Aku taktau apa nak jadi dah dgn life aku. Happy? Ahh damn wrong babe. Aku tak rasa happiness tu suit well dgn aku. Nak cakap mcm mana erk? Kemesraan tu mmg dah tak ada, so aku sendiri pun tak tau nak buat mcm mana dah. Aku sekarang ni just pegang prinsip 'Live the life, Laugh while you still can'. Aku pegang prinsip tu jer sbb aku sendiri dah lost control. Perasaan phobia dlm diri tak padam2 sampai skrg. Idk why. Argh tension siottt*