I just felt FEDUP with her 'perangai' .
I really cant understand the reasons why'd she always keep ignored me like rubbish .
Am i nothing to you ?
Oh I really cant face it anymore .
Im still human , So i DO have feelings and tears to cry on .
Just like you , rite ?
Is it too hard for you to love just like you did to everyone you loves ?
Is it that hard ?
Okay , I got it .
Its hard for you to love me just like you did to everyone becoz' Im not pretty , skinny , and perfect enough .
Yes , I got it and I've to stop dreamin' that you will love me ?
Sometimes I just felt a lil bit jealousy with my frens as Khalida :)
Whatever about her , I just felt a bit jealous .
She has a lovely mom , a great sister , a caring brother , a super sporting aunty and a kind grandma .
She's got a perfect title of family .
Thats what i want in a family .
But , what else can I do ?
I have to accept the fate , what I only have rite ?
Sometimes , everything I do , with all by myself .
I need strength to live .
I need wings to fly away from this pain .
I need someone's hand to run away with me .
I need someone's voice to make me have an energy to face this .
Also , I felt regret to be born like this .
But , now I felt thanked to Allah becoz , He makes me understand about life , lie , happinest , joy , friendship , family and so on :)
And I know how to handle the tested that He gave me .
I started to read an Al-Quran when I felt exhausted .
I started to pray and realized He was the One & Only Allah .
I think what ive wrote is enough for today !
Thanks for your cooperation reading my blog <3
Orite :> Gtg , n Choww (!)